Have you done everything right?
I certainly have not.
I didn’t realize how certain events of the past were eating at my soul.
Even though I could see how they happened and I felt powerless at the time to do anything else, I still blamed myself.
Once I discovered how large a toll was being extracted from me emotionally and physically every time I thought about it, I realized I had to do something different.
I reasoned that since I was the one reacting, I had the power to change my approach.
First I started with loving myself.
That was a good place to begin.
Then, I explored the idea of self-forgiveness.
Even though things have worked out for the best, I still felt badly.
I decided to feel good about how things have worked out.
I decided I could feel satisfied and happy for others involved.
Perhaps that event had been a catalyst for the ways things are now.
Even with an uncomfortable rift, there are still many good things happening.
I decided my expectations were unfair and unrealistic, because it demanded that someone else fulfill them.
I decided to work with the action I could take and see what new directions I could devise for myself.
This feels like a much better approach.
© 2013 Kathryn Hardage
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