I am noticing as I take control of my life, that my body still remembers and responds to many of the old habits it learned while under duress.
I am now taking the time to reeducate my body by deciding what to do about the past.
In the past, I did not have the tools to redirect my life.
Now I do.
In the past, I was under the direction and requirements of my parents.
Now, this is my responsibility.
In the past, I only had my own experiences to base my life on.
Now, I have access to the experiences of lots of other people, and I can tell the difference between a good life and a bad life.
With the tools, the responsibility and the awareness of good and bad patterns, I am consciously changing some of my reactions.
I am able to hear the language which produced the panic and trauma, and to replace it.
I have control over what I do, where I go, and when I can leave!
I can remove myself from any disagreeable circumstance.
I can remove the reactions to disagreeable circumstances from the past.
It is another technique.
I am learning to control my present life and to live it more happily as I become aware and take control.
I am so grateful.
© 2015 Kathryn Hardage