Every day of calm is a day of healing.
I have learned not to get too excited, either through happiness or sadness.
It can trigger an emotional level of overstimulation which leads to pain and the remembrance of trauma.
I used to feel that I had to become strong enough or accomplished enough to overcome my pain and PTSD.
Now, I feel relieved to know that the more I keep myself in a state of calm, the more I am healing.
I allow myself time to heal when old memories trigger unbearable pain.
I respect the time it takes to bring myself back into a feeling of well-being.
I am compassionate toward myself and I no longer bury nor trivialize the pain.
I respect my power and what it took to diminish it.
I respect how I am being helped and guided to build it up to much more than it was when I was a helpless child.
I can do this for myself.
I can comfort and protect and love and nurture that child within me.
She is worth it. I am worth it.
We are precious, she and I. We are one.
And I am calm once again.
© 2017 Kathryn Hardage