I visited my old identity, the accomplished, successful one.
I got all caught up in it, trying to relive the feeling.
But it was just my pathway to where I am now.
The one where I passed through hell, devastation, and despair.
The one where I saw the evil, cruelty and torture behind the success.
I dissolved those past influences over many years and with indescribable effort.
And I am here, now.
Not jumping to fulfill someone else’s dreams.
Back in my own skin.
A calmer, quieter vision.
One where I can hear my own heart.
Live according to my own soul.
It sure was exciting there for a little while.
© 2011 Kathryn Hardage