I found myself irritated at a conversation I heard while I was working on a project.
Increasingly, I also found myself reacting to the fluorescent lighting.
As I took steps to mitigate the lighting by putting on a hat I wear for protection from the sun, I found that I could no longer concentrate on my project.
I moved into a room with natural lighting and sat down to calm down.
A friend joined me to converse and to ease the situation.
Not until I got home and talked with my husband did I realize that I had been in the middle of a full-blown panic attack.
I realized that the irritating conversation I heard was a trigger for a feeling of extreme frustration from the past.
Since it was not directed at me, I had not caught it.
I am grateful to realize another example so that I can redirect myself.
I am grateful for the friend who helped me calm down with supportive conversation.
I will now be more aware when a combination of factors causes me to react with irritation and sensitivity.
I will act as quickly as I can to restore myself to my new standard of safety and harmony.
Fortunately, I am farther and farther away from the past causes of my symptoms.
I have acquired effective tools and techniques to deal with such situations.
I am around forgiving and understanding people, and I will ask for their patience once again.
© 2018 Kathryn Hardage
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