As I plan my days, I realize I am riddled with anxiety from my earlier life.
I am so grateful to have discovered the tools to rewrite and rewire my behavior patterns.
Even the simplest things are available for revamping.
I do know that now I am changing the foundation for my life.
That it is becoming safe.
That I can now see into the huge spaces that I had to block off in order to keep functioning.
That I can gently deal with each little item and tell myself that I am safe.
That it is safe to proceed.
That simple things can be done without criticism.
That they will not be met with cruelty and punishment.
I am so grateful for everything that sustained me.
And now I am grateful that I can peer out into more and more safe spaces.
I had no idea of the comfort of simply being able to live.
© 2013 Kathryn Hardage